Short Reflection in 2024
Hey, everyone!
It’s been quite a while since I last wrote anything, around June or August 2023. Well, Happy New Year, everyone! Or perhaps, Happy New Year to myself. Life has been remarkable lately, and I’ve been incredibly happy with all these life changes and this new phase I’m entering.
I’ve never greeted myself with as much happiness as I do today. I feel incredibly grateful for what I’ve been through. Experiencing this entirely new feeling is something I never expected. As a way of reflecting, I’d like to reminisce about moments I haven’t shared and talk about what’s happening now.
(1) Welcoming New Characters into My Life
Initially, I was somewhat apprehensive about immortalizing certain characters in my life or sharing my love story. However, I’ve come to realize that all I wanted was to embrace these new, specific feelings for this person and feel grateful for having them in my life. At some point, I understood that I should simply embrace these characters, moments, places, and songs as they are — a part of God’s gifts to me.
To cut a long story short, I met someone without any romantic sparks at first. It wasn’t the typical fairy tale story. All I can recall is our lengthy phone calls and a feeling that life would make sense if I walked this path with him. The integrity, the value, the story, the empathy — I can’t quite explain it, but I found a connection. Twelve months later, we got married in a mesmerizing moment, including a funny and joyful story.
The lines of God’s story are sometimes strange. At times, I pushed myself hard until my last effort, while other times, the universe conspired to make it happen. The saying “Never stop dreaming” is indeed true, and the magic of the Law of Attraction, coupled with reasonable action, is indeed a magical prayer.
(2) The Many Goodbyes in 2023
2023 was an extremely challenging year, yet it became the most profound era of introspection. Soulmates, career, finances, family, inner peace, spirituality, and everything in between — perhaps you can relate to the turmoil within when you hit 27 or approach 30.
At this point, I yearn for stability in my career, where work-life balance doesn’t seem to matter anymore. Some days, I crave an effortless life where I can just sleep and laze around yet have a healthy bank account.
Simultaneously, I find it hard to relate to other people’s issues because I’m also grappling with my path. Also, there were so many goodbyes to friends who chose their priorities because of family, finances, career stability, love life, and self-discovery that have been profound. As for myself, I feel strangely curious about the kind of character I will play in the future. I’ll still be me but with broader responsibilities and a wider comfort zone.
(3) Embracing Silence
As far as I know, living in silence resonates most with my current vision.
When I was younger, I craved visibility, recognition, and being acknowledged as good enough by everyone. But in the end, who cares, right? Living in silence is the peaceful life I want to embrace in 2024 and beyond. I desire to be myself without assumptions from the outside world, especially with these new characters. I want to immerse myself in this new role and plan more important things than materialistic pursuits.
Sometimes, I find it challenging to accurately describe my experiences in 2023. Emotions and shifts were happening internally that weren’t visible externally, sometimes not even recognizable. Whether it was a happy or sad story, moments of thrill, humor, and everything in between — only God could narrate it well. All I am certain of is my desire to embrace and appreciate the small details as a part of being grateful for God’s gifts — the lessons learned and moments of life-changing experiences.
(Thank you 2023)
Happy New Year, everyone!
